Welcome to another installment of TNBBC's Where Writers Write!
Where Writers Write is a series in which authors showcase their writing spaces using short form essay, photos, and/or video. As a lover of books and all of the hard work that goes into creating them, I thought it would be fun to see where the authors roll up their sleeves and make the magic happen.
This is Juditha Dowd.
In addition to Audubon's Sparrow: A Biograpy-in-Poems, Juditha Dowd is
the author of a full-length poetry collection, Mango in Winter (Grayson Books, 2013), as well as
short fiction, lyric essays, and three poetry chapbooks—The Weathermancer (Finishing Line, 2006), What Remains (Finishing
Line, 2009), and Back
Where We Belong (Casa de Cinco Hermanas, 2012). Her work appears in
many journals and anthologies, including Poet Lore, Poetry Daily, The Florida Review, Spillway,
Rock & Sling, Kestrel, and About Place. With the ensemble Cool Women she
regularly performs poetry in the New York-Philadelphia metro area and
occasionally on the west coast. Juditha currently lives in Easton, Pennsylvania
with her husband and two cats, not far from where Lucy Bakewell began her
long-ago adventure with John James Audubon. Visit her website at www.judithadowd.org.
Where Juditha Dowd Writers
In a 1978 interview one of my
favorite writers, Tillie Olsen (then sixty-five years old), talked about her final
book, Silences, a meditation on the essential relationship between
circumstance and creativity. By circumstance Olsen meant money, class,
responsibilities, and time, but also space—creativity needs a place to flourish
without interruption. In my twenties and thirties I didn’t have one. Like many
women of my generation, I married young—in my case to a writer who was also a painter.
The New York City railroad flat where we lived from 1964 through the late 1970s
with our two young girls was barely big enough for our everyday needs. And though
we were cash-strapped, I accepted my husband’s decision to rent himself a studio
in another building, where he spent much of his free time. Meanwhile, I’d occasionally
close the apartment’s bathroom door and sit on the edge of the tub with a
notebook—desperately trying to capture a poem that was already escaping. Or I’d
write into the night at our kitchen table, too tired by then to find the muse. It
still surprises me that I once considered this disparity normal.
Fast forward several decades
to the present, and the late-Victorian brick house where my second husband and
I live in Easton, Pennsylvania. Here I work in a sunny alcove adjacent to my
bedroom. It has everything I need and more: a door, a writing table, music, and
books. I’m deeply grateful for it. Though I’ve had the good fortune to spend
productive time at writers retreats, this room means the world to me. New
surroundings can spark a wave of creativity, as can being in community with
other artists. But I’ve found for me it’s familiar space, reliably mine, where
the most work gets done.
By design, this little room
doesn’t contain a guest bed or have any additional function, unlike the writing
spaces I’ve carved out previously. The only visitors here are our two Maine
Coon cats, who often sleep in a basket beside my writing table.
It’s a luxury to have a big
bookcase so close at hand. There I keep whatever books I might be currently
using for research, as well as the books I want to read soon and books I return
to frequently for inspiration, information, and pleasure.
At one end of my writing room
is a window with a view of our quiet street—something to stare at when my eyes
need a break. I can tell the weather at a glance. Occasionally people walk
by—our neighbor with his dog or children returning from school. My thoughts are
free to ramble. In winter I share this window with a Meyer lemon tree that has
wonderfully fragrant blossoms.
My mother was a woman of
Olsen’s generation, whose life spanned almost the same years. Apparently she
drew in her youth, but I only saw one picture—an illustration in her high
school yearbook—a dark pine tree. When she took up painting in middle age, I
had already left home and my brothers were teenagers. Talented, she studied
with a local teacher for some time and finished a dozen or so paintings. But
despite our praise, my mother didn’t hang those paintings in our house, or if
she did it was only for a short while. I’m a perfectionist she’d say, as
though that explained everything. She eventually put away her paints but her
art remained a tender subject, something she was uncomfortable discussing. After
my father died and she seemed at loose ends, I suggested she might want to take
up painting again, but she firmly said no. That refusal and what may have been
hiding behind it still makes me sad, and I wonder if I could have done more to
encourage her. These days I keep my favorite of her pictures in front of me when
I write. It reminds me how fragile the creative impulse can be. It reminds me
to believe in myself, to persevere.
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